My husband has been unemployed for almost a year. I cannot find a nursing job.
We both sit here day after day looking for new internet job listings as I slowly die inside. I have never been so bored in my life. I am on one of my lowest levels of discouragment as well.
I don't see any way out of financial poverty. We rent the house. All savings are spent.
All I can see is the spiraling downward into a bottomless pit. How will we get out?
I think I'd rather be in the pit alone as spouse and I have nothing in common and view the world from different corners.
I listen to his comments and wonder what the f was I thinking?
I wasn't thinking. That was the problem. We don't mesh at all about anything any longer.
How do I suck it up?
Where do I find a job when the unemployment rate is 17%?
I have not worked for money in 20 years.
I have no clue.
I used to pray and believe God would save the day but lately I cannot have faith in that.
I know there are folks way worse off.
I'm weary and my face has broken out in zits and eczema so I look like a 15yo with graying hair.
Where do I go from here without jumping off a cliff???